“You rescued me and I found my ruin.” I bit down on my lip. “I’m ruined for you — and I won’t ever be the same."
I have started to write a review for Ruin over and over again, but I am having a hard time putting into words what this book did to me.
The prologue of this book had me constantly guessing the entire time about what was going to happen throughout the story.
This journey starts with Kiersten who is fighting to resume normal life after losing both of her parents in a tragic accident. She is just starting to come back to the world of the "living" when she meets Wes Michels, an incredibly handsome senior at her college.
" 'I’m a bit insulted that you think I’d have to break into a girl’s room to get in. Believe me. I knock, they open, I walk in. It’s as simple as that.” I bet it was. "
They have an instant attraction to each other, but neither wants to act on it. Kiersten hasn't experienced the world. She is trying to break free and live. She can't be tied down. Not to a boy. And Wes, well he is hiding something. Because of the impenetrable walls they each have up, they decide that it would be best for them to be friends, and nothing more.
Throughout the story, Wes helps Kiersten conquer her fears. He wants her to experience the life she is scared to embrace. He pushes her to open her eyes to to trying new things. Fighting her fears. Doing things through fear.
"I ignored her. “Fear can be your ally. You can do something afraid.” “Do something afraid?” “Yes.” I swam until my legs burned, holding her up in my arms. “For example, I may be afraid of kissing you or afraid of losing you. I may be afraid that when I close my eyes you won’t be here in my arms anymore, but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to hold on to you for dear life. I’m living proof that living afraid — is the way to go. You push forward, you fight the demons, you keep moving. Fear tries to paralyze you, to keep you from moving. It stops success, it stops progress — when you do things afraid, you’re still accomplishing your goals, only you’re doing it knowing that you are truly conquering the Everest in your life. So your parents died.” I flinched. I hadn’t meant to sound so blunt. But I pushed on. “So you could die too.”
But Wes has kept a secret from Kiersten. A big secret. Life altering.
"I should have told her then. Told her that I wasn’t the hero she thought I was. Nah, I was keeping something epic from her, which sort of made me the villain in this tale. But damn, I wanted to be the hero. "
It wasn't supposed to matter, because they weren't supposed to fall in love.
"That whole falling in love thing will have to be saved for someone who’s worthy of that heart of yours.”
She laughed. “How do you know my heart’s good?”
“I can tell you have a good heart…” I sighed, opening the door to the outside. “…because the minute I met you, I wanted to fight for it.”
However, life rarely acts according to your plans. Things happen. Feelings change. And bonds get stronger.
“Every time you close your eyes, regardless of where I am or where you are, I want you to remember this.” His fingers laced with mine and then he pressed my hand against my own chest. “Wherever I am, whatever I’m doing, alive or dead, young or old, my heart will always be with yours. Every beat you feel against your fingertips…” His finger tapped against my chest, once, twice. “…is me calling out to you. It’s you returning the call. It’s us talking, communicating, bonding, sharing. Living — Kiersten, it’s us living. There may come a time in your life when your heart will have to beat for mine… but you’ll have to carry on if I can’t. Just like there may come a time when I have to do the same for you. But in the end, one of us will always carry on this.” He tapped again. “So there’s never a reason to be afraid of running out of time — because we keep our own.”
This is a beautiful love story full of laughter and tears. It's about fighting when you feel like giving up. Staying strong when the weight of the world is on your shoulders and all you want to do is crumble. I'm not going to lie, I was worried. Truly terrified that I was not going to get my happily ever after.
I'm here to tell you - don't fret! This is a beautiful stand-alone novel with a tear filled happy ending...
5 Big Stars!!